Thursday, February 7, 2008

I decided not to go to the gym this week and it has been liberating. I have been so overwhelmed with just trying to get it all done, all the time, everyday. So I decided to take a break from the job that is boring me the most right now and that is working out. I usually like the routine part of me. But this week I thought it might drive me to the funny farm. So instead of going to the Y....

on Monday Asher and I came home after dropping Holden off at school. We never do this, we always head straight to the Y. Asher never gets the chance to play on his own and for that matter with his own toys. It was fun to watch him wander around and have the freedom to just be. I was able to catch up on some emails and get a leg up on the rest of the weeks chores. I felt relaxed when I picked Holden up later that morning, and when we returned home for lunch it wasn't as crazy as it usually is.

On Tuesday we visited Aunt Meri instead of yet again going to the Y. She lives just down the street, but we never get a chance to visit enough. We didn't move all the way home just to be stuck working out all the time and not seeing the people we love. She has a darling dog named Dolly and the kids love her. Meri is alone in the mornings, which is even more of a reason to stop by more often just in case she needs something. The boys can be pretty shy with her. At one time Asher was a little scared of her wheel chair, but this visit he was impressing her with all his new words!

Wednesday was a snow day. No school for Holden(how does he already know to be excited about that) The neighboorhood kids were out and Holden had a blast. He was seriously out all day. I had to drag him home at 3:30 and bride him with a cookie to get him to stop crying about leaving his friends. We have some major rules when he goes out to play and he is so great at following them. Sometimes I can't believe how responsible he can be, or maybe I have scared him into being that way. He comes home when the kids are leaving the back yard, he knows that his mom has set boundaries and he's not going to cross them. So we have talked a lot about trust this week and what it means to be proud. And today instead of going to the Y, we went to the Science Center to just play. Holden enjoyed the ride downtown to see all the tall buildings, and I enjoyed the change of scenery. They played for a couple of hours and then we headed to Wendy's for a special treat. They are so much fun to be with, and my proudest moments as a stay at home mom are when I'm actually able to be "in the moment" and watch them as they grow and discover new things. I needed this week "off" especially to relax and enjoy Holden. At four years old he is a challenge. He can be sassy, emotional, rough, loud, and over powering all in the car ride home from preschool. It can zap my energy pretty quickly and this break from our ordinary week helped me appreciate how much he is changing in possitive ways. He asks amazing questions about life and people, he dreams about his mom every night(at least that's what he tells me) He loves his friends, and is passionate about adventures. He counts down the days until he sees his cousins, and he really does try to share with his brother. He draws the most adorable monsters, he wants to know what letter all of our names start with, and he uses the word cute to describe power rangers and ninja turtles. So I hope my jeans forgive this week. I think buying a bigger size might be worth a few more weeks off to enjoy my boys exactly where they are at.

3 comments:

Kristin said...

Oh sarah! I wish my week off had been for such marvelous reasons. You're such a great mommy no matter what you think.

Jenny said...

Sarah, you won't be needing any new jeans anytime soon. You are beautiful inside and out! Your boys are so lucky to have you (and Aunt Meri too). Here's to mental health days as well as physical health days.

Jenny said...

Ok, I am commenting again, b/c I forgot to ask is 32 years too much of an age difference? I am in love with Asher in this picture and I am willing to wait for him... just kidding, he is soooooo cute!